Struggle

And the day came when

the risk it took to remain

tight inside the bud

was more painful than the

risk it took to blossom.

Anais Nin

I feel the weekend stretching out before me full of promise. The week has been a struggle where nothing felt quite right. I was uneasy, restless, lethargic, tearful. Now I am starting to feel more comfortable in my skin. Maybe today I will find my creative spirit. Maybe today I will enjoy feeling my body growing stronger through exercise. Maybe today I will connect with a friend I haven't spoken to in a while. Maybe today I will feel sexy for the first time in months. Maybe today I will embrace life.

Or maybe today I will just do all the things I need to do without feeling really alive. Nah, I don't think that will happen today...

Today I have hope.